doggie blues

I'm depressed these days!! My Brittany girl is gone to school

:-0

Joe's

Well we ate at Joe's because someone said it was great down home cooked food. It's like just out around the corner from us. Well all I can say is My momma's home cooking and my home cooking beats old Joe's I truly doubt that I'll go there again! It actually scared me!

Half Moon Bay High

Well today I got my classes. I had to go to the school to get them and i saw where they are. i didn't get my locker till wednesday because I am new i suppose. but i think this year will be fun(: im already meeting people and i already have third period with a girl named stephenie that i met. so thatll be fun! as you can see me and mom went to my school and took pictures to show you all what im getting myself into. it was a warm day today.. ive never see it or felt this warm in half moon bay! its pretty crazy! i am excited for school to start. and start over.(:

BRIT

What do you do?

I'm in a place where I didn't have a lot of choice about being in. Ok so I'm here. Or am I really? This weekend I was in Lehi again. My mother had taken a turn for the worse and she almost died. I had to get there as soon as I could. I spend three days going down to Payson to care for her and my dad. I would go back to Lehi absolutely exhausted! Wiped out!

I found that all my life I was working at making everybody happy. Making sure everyone was doing well. I always put forth my best effort to do the best by everyone. But when I went to Lehi I realized that no one was doing that for me? Not that I was expecting anyone to. It was just interesting as my older kids went their separate ways without a word of where they were going. Then It made me wonder if anyone would be there to take care of me when became frail, or blind as life progresses? Hmm I do wonder?

As I have become familiar with the routine of flying into San Francisco Airport I felt very alone. My flight had a young couple investing time and love into a little child. I wanted to say to them don't do it! They just grow up and leave. Don't do it! They really won't love you the same later. I was longing for my little kids, longing for Utah yet longing to be with James and Britt in HBB. Just dang lonesome. Again feeling a loss of home, and hoping for happiness and success in my new spot, or plot? Part of it is I feel my time of quality life is short. That my vision is failing and that my time for the normals joys is short. Seeing how fast my mother is at the end of mortality is surreal, sobering. Where are all the crowds that surround her. She should be constantly surrounded by grandchildren and children, but she's not.

Ok, enough of that!

It's finally happening SUNSHINE!!! They said the Falls are beautiful here. And I'm holding everyone to that! Today was Sunday, James was sustained as a member of the San Francisco South Stake High Counsel. He will be working with the Relief Society and the Philippine ward. We also had our first official meeting for early morning Seminary. It's at the teacher's home. And starts at 6:10 in the morning! To say the least miss sunshine Britt turned into dark brewing storm front Britt. I guess the whole thing sounds like WORK. She was mean, grumpy and an all around broodster!! No great friendships made today Britt! I think she scared off all the boys. She fights learning, she fights anything that makes her stretch! Well here we go elastic band. She is going to stretch!

James and I were given our visiting teaching, home teaching assignments. Strange thing is not enough active people to have a partner. So were flying solo. James has six people to contact, I have two. One who sill like me calling and one who will not.

I heard today that if you walk on the shore path by the Ritz hotel tonight at sundown you can hear bagpipes playing until the sun falls beyond the horizon. See there are perks here. Just try to not enjoy a sunset on the beaches of the Pacific Ocean. Dare you to not not smile just a little.

Best of all this Adventure is every single amazing person I have met. Love them, enjoy them, and most of all I am grateful for them.

FRAN;0

Mommy's Gone :/

soo.. mom went to utah.. without me!

WEDNESDAY .. i woke up to an empty house. well to me and bent.(doggy) so it was pretty quiet. it wasn't to bad cause i was aloud to turn the music up as loud as i want and be pretty lazy until dad got home. So when dad did get home we went to MCcdonalds and drove up to a cliff type of a thing above the beach and checked that out. was pretty.

THURSDAY .. i went running with bent in the neighborhood. annnnd i got lost.. its a big neighborhood but i did make it home. then later i made dinner. didn't go to well it all went dry and just wasn't good. what can i say... i cant cook(: I'm missing mommy):

FRIDAY .. was waaaay fun! me and dad went to the mall that has a theater in it too. we had two hours till the 7 o'clock showing of vampires suck. so we finished up my school shopping and i got two really cute sandels and some purple boots. (: then i got a bag for school from Guess. a 70 dollar bag. love it. haha then we saw the movie. it was really funny. but had some naughty parts but overall ..I.. thought it was funny.

SATERDAY.. me and dad went to Alices rest. and brought mom some food too. we took it to go and i came home and ten minutes later.. mom showed up!! (my friend!!) i missed hanging out with her i was excited to see her! i missed her but we also still texted (:

Company! My Josh and Annie with their Kacey and Andrea

The weekend of my first big visit from my kids. Well, kids meaning two of my kids. Annie and Joshua were coming out on a road trip with Annie's friendAndrea and Joshua's friend Kacey. I was so excited. I even wet to Costco for afew items they would enjoy. Actually my first California trip to the mighty COSTCO! I over did it of course. I always want to make sure everything is just perfect.

The kids were doing a drive all night get here in the morning trip. I was of course very anxious for their safety since they drive Annie's Mazda 3. And even more aware of worries because Annie who is 18 insisted that she drive part of the way! She is the girl with the ticket zoom zoom issues. But I trusted in the chill out mother philosophy and went to bed. I woke up about 4:30 AM when I knew sleep was gone for the night, and anxious awaiting replaced it.

Just after five in the morning I hear a knock on the door. I fly out of bed, run down the stairs and open the door. There standing in the dark of Half Moon Bay misty darkness was Annie looking exhausted but alive. One by one they came in the house

where they were greeted with hugs and excitement from me. James referred me to a kid on Christmas Morning. I wanted to share everything here with them. Josh had seen the house because he moved us in. But it wasn't fixed up or in order. Annie had never been here. Annie loved the house. That made me feel really good. Im guessing she was expecting less than what she found. Josh loved what he saw also in everything being put into shape by mom mostly, but dad's picture hanging duties were a plus.

We fixed the kids up for some sleep and sleep they did. Joshua woke up first since I was by him playing music on the computer. The girls were next because I went and jumped on their bed and said time to play!

We enjoyed times at the beach, eating and San Francisco. They enjoyed Great America theme park, and the Santa

Cruz board walk.

Sunday morning we ha

d the joy of having them come to Sacrament meeting with us. I loved sharing my new people with them. I loved having them sitting next to me. I'm use to a crowd around me and it felt good. It was they day of my first Young Women's lesson so I couldn't spend much time after Sacrament with them. But I did run home with them and said goodbye and said my love you's and I was off.

When I came home little sign of them was left. And the house was quiet. Down side to having them come is having them leave.

I will miss kids coming into

my bathroom to do their hair, brush their teeth, really why do they always come in my b

athroom? Got to love it!

FRAN

wednesday josh, andrea, kacey and annie drove out here and got here about 5 in the morning. i

heard them come in and i

was so out of it. annie came in and jumped on the bed and me and gave me a

hug. it was sooo much fun to see them.

thursday me and mom showed them the beach we live by and then went toy the beach that has the seals. they werent there. then we went to the chowder house everyone got something with fish in it and i was the only one who didnt. i am a baby when it comes to fish.

then all us kids went to santa cruz.

Friday all the kids went to great america. it was way fun. they had some good rides that were cool. andrea got a video of me on one of the rides.. haha pree funny. but its on her camera.

over all. i loved it.

saturday all of us including mom and dad went to san francisco and traffic was bad sometimes it was way busy i thought i was in new york sometimes. mom and dad left earlyer and the kids stayed and got home about at 11ish. got home and ate then bed. we were sooo tired. to the point where were out of it. it was alot of fun though.

sunday they left):

BRITT

I HAVE COMPANY!

ANNIE, JOSHUA, KACEY AND ANDREA

THEY DROVE ALL NIGHT TO GET HERE

YIPPIE!!